Breathing Underwater by Abbey Lee Nash
Author:Abbey Lee Nash [Lee, Abbey Nash]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Holiday House
Published: 2024-03-05T00:00:00+00:00
CHAPTER
THIRTEEN
In the days that follow, Dr. Cappalanoâs words cycle through my brain on repeat: We just donât know if youâll have another seizure until you do. No matter how hard I try to focus on training, my mounting anxiety is a constant distraction. Itâs like Iâm carrying around a ticking time bomb set to whenever, and Iâm just holding my breath until it detonates.
On Friday, Coach meets me at the end of my lane after practice.
âYou feeling okay?â she asks.
âYeah.â I peel off my goggles, run my hands down my face. âI donât know.â
âYou need to tell me if training is too much.â
âItâs not that. Iâm just off this morning. In my head, I guess.â
Coach folds her arms across her clipboard. âYouâre already going to be swimming with a handicap at Nationals. Mentally, you need to be on your game.â
The word handicap bows my head like a heavy hand. âI know.â
âI expect you to be focused at tomorrowâs meet.â
I tell her I will be, but doubt has taken root and it festers through the night. Worst-case scenarios play out in my dreams: demotion to the C Finals at Nationals, humiliating myself in front of the entire swimming community, my scholarship yanked out from under me. Each loss a domino that knocks down the next.
Saturday morning, Dad finds me in the kitchen, making breakfast before the meet. Heâs dressed in jeans and an Oakwood Academy T-shirt, the softly lined skin around his eyes creased with sleep.
I spread creamy avocado on a slice of toast. âWant some?â
âCoffee first. Always coffee.â Dad fills a travel mug to the brim. âYou feel ready?â
âI guess.â
âEvery win counts,â he reminds me.
âSo does every loss.â The food feels like concrete in my throat. âMaybe I shouldnât go.â
âTo the meet?â
âTo Nationals.â
Dad lowers his mug. âYouâre kidding, right?â
âYou heard what Coach said about modified training. Thereâs no way Iâm going to make the A Finals now.â
âCâmon, Tess. One bad test result and youâre ready to give up on your dreams?â
âYou did.â
âThat was different,â Dad says, his voice tightening. âYou canât play ball with a blown knee.â
âYou canât swim with epilepsyânot really.â
âMaybe some people canât, but youâre a fighter, kid. You always have been.â
I raise my brow, not so sure.
âEven when you first learned how to swimâit was like you belonged in the water, like your body just knew what to do.â
âLetâs hope it doesnât forget,â I say dryly. For the first time in my life, I canât trust my body; it could betray me at any time.
Dad pushes a travel mug across the counter. âWeâve got this.â
I force a smile, thinking if things go south, it wonât be âweâ gasping for air on the pool deck. It will just be me.
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